Sexual orientation issues
The whole time we have been married, there have been issues with infidelity, sexual problems, and even sexual orientation. Early on in our marriage my husband encouraged me to try "Swinging". I did this reluctantly, but he has always pushed things until I gave into him. I continued for years to be uncomfortable with this but did it anyway. Then I found three different times that he either had an affair or wanted to have an affair with women.
At that point I stopped loving him and did not want to let him control me any longer. Feeling at the time that I could not leave for my kids I stayed in the marriage. I ended up having affairs myself after I found out about him and then kept getting more and more unhappy. I tried to file for a divorce, but my husband made my kids and my life so miserable that I went back to him. I am still unhappy and just don’t know what to do.