My husband has the mindset of an incorrigible teenager.

by Sky
(New Jersey)

I met my husband six years ago when we were both teachers at the same school. The relationship began very intensely. I had been alone for 7.5 years after my first husband left me and my son. In those 7.5 years, I didn't really do any healing, just burying my sorrow and anger. So when I met my current husband, I wasn't truly ready for a relationship. However, the feelings of intoxication of having a man in my life and the promise of a real family clouded my judgment and made me go ahead with being with this man.

Very early on, he was emotionally abusive.

For example, a month into the relationship, he invited me to meet him and his daughter from a former relationship at his mom's house. When I got there, he showed me family photos and acted like real bonding was taking place. Later that day, on the way to the mall, he started a conversation about affirmative action. I love debating current topics and exploring all sides of an issue. Well, that was a mistake with him. Something I said set him off and he accused me of "ruining the world" with my beliefs and being a "self-hating minority." He took off with his daughter and left me in the mall parking lot. When I finally found him at the mall to ask for a ride back to my car, he told his four-year-old daughter that I had no friends.

Anyway, a healthy person would have kept walking and never looked back. I, however, come from an emotionally abusive background and I was profoundly lonely, so I stayed with him. Many other instances of his crazy behavior surfaced, but still I stayed.

One night, I invited him to have dinner with me and my son. He refused. Later that night, I caught him at a nightclub kissing another woman. I still stayed with him. Two weeks later, on his birthday, we were hanging out watching a movie and a football game when I said something that he perceived to be defending a conservative talk show host (it sounds so insane when I retell it.) He threw the birthday gift I had given him in my face and told me to help him dig his car out of the snow so he could leave.
At work, he ignored me like I didn't exist.

A week later, I found out I was pregnant. I told him. I wanted to give the baby up for an open adoption, but he convinced me to keep it. He moved in and we lived together for more miserable years in which he moved out on me twice, slept with bar skanks and prostitutes, yelled at me, belittled me, demeaned me and generally treated me like a piece of garbage, interspersed with moments of loving kindness.

So what did I do, I married this person in July of this year. His behavior has gotten worse since then. The issues of sleeping around have improved. But the underlying disrespect and disregard for me as a person is still there.

As a last ditch effort, I signed us up for a relationship boot camp a few weeks ago. It was about compassion for yourself and others. I learned a whole lot; mainly that change comes from within. You must love yourself first and foremost. I had always heard that, but didn't have a strategy to make that happen. The boot camp did teach me strategies for loving myself, even and especially if the other person doesn't love you.

Well, he fought with me on the first day of the boot camp, at lunch, cussing me out. By the third day of the boot camp, he was on board and we had a nice ride home. The night we got home, though, he fought with me again, this time over an opinion I had about our favorite TV show.

That is when I first seriously considered leaving this miserable life behind. I cannot love myself, and at the same time subject myself and my kids to this anymore.

Right now, I have a major surgery coming up. After I recover from that and get a job, I will divorce him. He is monstrous in his thinking and deeds. It is not until I write it down that I truly can internalize how crazy his behavior is. I am a loving, smart, passionate woman who deserves to live a life where I can share those things with others. I long for love in my life, but what I have is not love, it is sickness. I look forward to the day I am free.

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My Jerk Ex: He Lied, Cheated, and Stole
by: Mindy

I really can't take the pain anymore thinking about what my idiot ex did. He lied constantly, cheated, stole, manipulated, gas-lighted, blame shifted. The whole marriage he wanted to be single!!! Why did he get married then?

Don't these men realize the damage they cause? Don't say "I DO" and play the role if you don't want to be married. Of course some of these men think it’s all happy horsepoo the first couple months of marriage; getting waited on hand and foot and catered to. Then when real life sets in, it's every excuse under the sun!

The economy causes men to drink and act out. Society in general has no morals. And because of so much wide spread filth on the net, these men think life is really like that. They act out their fantasies and yet wonder why they get slapped with harassment charges!!! They think it's ok to flirt with, or carry on with any female within 2 feet distance of them. No boundaries!!!!! Then it was always his managers or bosses fault, then it was always his clients fault or my fault or other women’s fault or his families fault.

He claimed there was too much stress; managing payments, insurance, kid’s health issues, issues with aging parent, work issues, client issues, how people act or drive issues. Never his issues though. It was always someone or something else keeping him from achieving success or his goals. Always his GOALS!!!! No one else mattered!

He made my blood boil! HE would flirt anytime he deemed fit. He would spend with abandon. He thought he was Mr. Hot Stuff. That was another thing; he always had to be center of attention! LOOK AT ME SYNDROME! Sick, toxic, vile, selfish, immature, mental capability of an immature 18 year old boy when he was darn near 50! Refusal to get out of Never Land and grow up! The women issues! Oh my God, he would constantly be bothering women and yet wondered why people started to question whether or not he was whacked or not? Cake and eat it too syndrome he also had.

These type of men should do the world, God, women, and society in general a favor and by all means don't get married, stay at home with their Mammies and have their Mammies cook, clean, and take care of them and go mess around with as many single women as they want, but don't bother wasting any decent woman's time getting married. They are incapable of growing up and realizing what true commitment and sacrifice are. Thanks for letting me vent!

This guy sounds like as slot machine
by: Martha

Sounds like you kept dumping all your emotional chips in him hoping for that big pay out, but all you got were little wins (those brief periods of loving kindness you mentioned). In the end though, the "house" (aka the husband) won, and you're emotionally bankrupt, right?

Oh, I know this game. I’ve been playing it with my husband for 2 years. And yes, I married him knowing full well he was a bad guy. But I stuck my money in the machine anyway, knowing the odds were I would lose.

I don't think you're a sucker. I think we're both addicts, stuck on terrible men. I wish you the best of luck in your future! You deserve more than this :)

Legal advice
by: Stephanie G.

If I were you - I would start searching for legal advice now.

Know your rights and what you are entitled too in regards to your marriage and children (Which will actually be a lot).

You will then have this information stored away and ready to go when you have fully recovered.

Stephanie G.

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