"Our love ended so soon"

by Megan G
(Corpus Christi,Texas)

My husband and I got married after dating for well over nine years. We met while we were still in high school and working at the same job. A friendship turned into love, yet I started seeing changes in him. The changes were due to him cheating and lying to me. As we grew older, his ways continued and yes I’m dumb for staying with him, but I thought he would change.

We finally got married when I was 20 and things were wonderful. Yet now, one and a half years later, we can’t stand each other.... all we do is fight and yell and put each other down.. I guess it's kind of my fault if I had just broken it off all those years ago, maybe I wouldn't be so heart broken. I mean who really stays with a guy that gives her the excuse that the reason he cheated was because he didn't care about her???

Now, he works out of town so he lives there Monday thru Friday and comes home on the weekend and all we do is fight..... I have no idea what to do.... when it’s good it’s great!!! But right now I just can't stand to look at him....divorce at this point seems to be the only option. He's changed "so he says", but do I forgive him? Should I act like nothing happened and forget the past? Or should I go with my heart and leave this man lonely?