He is a narcissist
He is controlling, dishonest, emotionally and verbally abusive: A Narcissist
After almost 29 years of marriage, 6 children, and constant financial crisis, I found the courage to leave. It is actually my third time.
He is addicted to pornography, and addicted to drama and unable to see how he creates so much pain in the lives of others around him and in his own life. He has emotionally abused our children and used guilt to control them and me. One daughter was ready to kill herself as a result of the emotional manipulation and blame and shame he put her through.
I have been in counseling which has helped me to see things as they really are, instead of believing that it is entirely my fault. I don't have a job, but I have hope that I will be able to put my head and heart back together and have a happy life where I own myself and my choices and my thoughts. Most of our children are grown, with a 12 year old son and 17 year old daughter still at home. She is with me and he is with his dad.
It is very painful, and at times I doubt myself, but as I remember that I spent the last few years in a state of depression and occasionally thoughts of suicide, I realize there is now hope. It will take me a while to get on my feet and to get the critical blaming controlling voice out of my head. I am on my way to gaining control of my life.
It is crucial for my daughters to see me make this change, and I only hope they will learn to expect more from their lives and eventually their marriages, than I did. I know God will bless and guide me, and at times that is all that gets me through. I know marriage is pleasing to God, but I know He LOVES His daughters and His heart breaks when any one of them is treated with disrespect and meanness.
There is a better life ahead.