Alcohol and drugs were more important
I am a simple lady with different views than my husband. He loves to party with others and drink and smoke crack. My husband loves his Alcohol and Crack more than his own wife. This is the 2nd time I left and my final time. I am not going back to him at all.
He has a split personality; he can be sweet as pie one minute and the next he is ripping things apart and breaking them. Then he’ll say "oh honey that will never happen again." You believe him until the next time it happens.
Then there are the constant put downs in public, calling you ugly. He puts his own family before me, but makes me choose him over my family. I’m not allowed to have friends. He loves to have control and I’m not allowed to do much of anything.
He is a brain washer but I cannot fall for his act anymore. I had to get away because I need to be on my own to let myself heal all over again.
He has been using Crack since before we got married. He promised to get help, but always had an excuse. The 1st time I left him it was because he lost his job because he wanted to get high instead of working. All I asked of him is to quit getting high and his reply was “There is no way I can quit”. I replied back “There is no way I can stay”. So I left. That was 4 years ago.
Two years later, I got really sick and he decided to come take care of me. I had a stroke and now I am disabled. The whole control cycle started all over again this last spring and lasted until December 3rd, when I packed up and left again.
Now I am doing that cool down period and let me tell you, if he knew where I was I would not be here. I would be 6 feet under. He has already told that to several people that I know.
I CAN NOT LIVE OR LOVE A MAN WHO CONTINUES TO DRINK, DO DRUGS, AND ABUSE HIS OWN WIFE....SORRY IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN ANYMORE...
He makes $60,000 a year… I make $9600 a year on SSDI. Who is going to survive, me or him? I cannot even find a place to live for less than $300 a month.
I AM A GETTING THERE, SLOWLY BUT SURELY...