He misled me
This man entered my life as "Prince Charming". He came in and took me to places I had only dreamed of. He was God fearing, loving, and kind. Never, ever did I think my dreams could possibly be answered in this way! I completely believed he was sent by God. I gave him everything, completely gave my heart, never had I trusted so completely!
We married and I became his driving partner in the trucking business. I didn't like it, but for him I was willing to give it all. Then he started being mean to me. He was hurtful, rude, and never apologized for his actions. He always made me believe I wasn't the wife I should be, so I sought God and I became renewed. I was saved and leaned from my past mistakes and we were doing well. I had my husband back!
Then the trouble started again with the mean hurtful actions and texting women he referred to as friends. He even told one he loved her, and when I asked about it, he became infuriated. He explained later that he told all his friends that he loved them.
So I accepted it, but was skeptical. So finally for no reason at all, he became angry at me for asking normal every day questions. He yelled and screamed and then left me in a truck stop 700 miles away from home, 5 days before Christmas.
We haven't spoken since. Now I'm left in a state of confusion. I thought God wanted us together. I thought we were meant to be. I struggle with why, and I don't know what to do next. How is a gift from God turned into total despair and unhappiness?